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他怕她冷，给她披上棉袄，又加了围巾。

他回过头来，轻声说道，坐稳了啊。

Moral Authority

Dalai Lama is in London and he has finally spoken.

LONDON — China lacks the moral authority needed to be considered a superpower, the Dalai Lama said Thursday in remarks to British legislators in which he also noted that the Summer Olympics provide an opportunity to press Beijing over human rights.

I hope Dalai looks into the eyes of Wen Jia Bao, who was in SiChuan within two hours since the earthquake happened, directing and comforting the crowd, while the aftershocks were on-going, and tell Wen Jiao Bao that he needs to strengthen his moral authority.

I hope Dalai looks into the eyes of the female police offer who has lost a two-year-old girl and her parents, but kept working on the site saving people until she collapsed on the job, and tell her that she needs to beef up her moral authority.

I hope Dalai looks into the eyes of countless teachers who kept going back into the shaking buildings to evacuate the kids until they were killed themselves, and tell them they need to work on the moral authority.

I hope Dalai looks into the eyes of a guy who suffered bone fractures but refused medical help for 7 days on the ground that medical resources were scarce and he could be treated later. I hope Dalai tells him in the face that he needs to work on the moral authority.

Lameting on moral authority of China now? While Chinese has demonstrated unprecedented level of passion and courage? Dalai Lama has to be the stupidest religious leader (if I can call that) in the world.

Hey, even the Shao Lin monks are using their skill to treat people onsite.

Dalai Lama could go to hell.

Pure critique of reasons

I have to write this in English so that I could distance myself a little from the sorrow brought by the earthquake, and comment on a few matters, rationally. I can’t write anything in Chinese without being emotional at this time. This, in an ironic way, proves that English language is always secondary to me.

I have watched all major TV channels of China, including四川电视台，重庆电视台，凤凰电视台，湖南电视台，中央电视台, and I think I am qualified to make a few comments.

On Leadership
Premier Wen Jia Bao was onsite since day 1, while Hu Jin Tao was there on day 3, or day 4. When Wen Jia Bao was speaking to the victims, sometimes voice-shaken, and even with tears, he was making very soothing and natural remarks “Just hang on there, food is on the way”. In contrast, Hu Jin Tao is very conscious of camera angles, and he was making grand remarks like “The Party and the military will take care of all this! We will overcome this disaster!!”.

I know, I shouldn’t doubt Hu’s caring and sincerity, but Wen won my hearts.

On SuperStars
Jackie Chan and Jet Li went to Sichuan. Jackie Chan said “The Police escorted me along a very difficult road”.

Since the disaster area has already gotten worldwide attention, superstar’s presence is relatively unimportant. We don’t need Jackie to advertise to the world how bad it is over there. Sure, they care about the victims, but my only hope is that they go to ground zero on the condition that they cause no extra burden to the already stretched resources of police and military.

And I heard Andy Lau is on the way.

On Dalai Lama
We haven’t heard from this guy for quite some time. Not even a statement of condolence?

On Donation
I have made some donation via credit card to Tsing Hua foundation, which pledges to fund China RedCross. Nothing to be proud of. I’m doing this to make myself feel a little better.

However, I have overheard a very common conversation. Exact wordings vary, but the themes are similar.

A: Have you donated to the earthquake victims?
B: No, I wish to donate to both, China and Myanmar.
A: So have you donated to both?
B: No, because Myanmar government seems like a badass, and I’m not sure whether the victims will get my money.
A: Then what about China?
B: I don’t think that they need money now.. they are overwhelmed by charities. If I were in china I would like to be a volunteer to help out the logistics…


On Praying
Praying to which God? You couldn’t ask me to pray to someone who did all this. On the other hand, you couldn’t ask me to pray to someone who was not in control during the 20 seconds on May 12th 2:28pm.

Having said this, I do not object to praying if it provides psychological comfort or remedy.

这一个礼拜，不是用天来计算的，是用分分秒秒来计算的。

许多的消息，不忍心看，却不能不看。不忍心听，却不能不听。

海啸也罢，风灾也罢，生死都是一瞬间的事情，相对来说，还是比较好的。地震的受难者，如果顿时去了还好，否则就是人间地狱。受难者的身体也许深埋在瓦砾底下，一时半刻去不了。叫天不应，叫地不灵，空气慢慢用光了，血慢慢流光了，人的意志也没有了，剩余的只是恐慌，痛苦，持续十多个小时后才死去。想到这种折磨，就难以忍受。再想象把这些痛苦放在孩子的身上，真是痛彻心扉。

汶川地震后第二天 - 随笔

嫣然已经十八个月大了。

她现在是一个精灵的小淘气。

她会常常走到我的身边，握起小拳头，好像要把一些东西交到我的手中。接着她摊开她的掌心，却什么也没有。我惊奇的喊道，”疑？” 。她的诡计得逞，便格格地笑了。

刚满一岁左右，每当我说”A for?”,她会答”Apple”. 最近她终于学会了B for Boy 和 C for Cat. 有一次我问她B 和C的时候，她故意全答Apple, 接着就笑个不停。

每次驾车载她外出，嫣然的眼睛可厉害了。只要经过任何的儿童Playground, 她必定指着远方大叫。随着车子渐渐远去，当乐园消失在视野内，她总会接受残酷的事实，向乐园的方向说道:Bye Bye!

嫣然似乎会跟任何的东西都挥手说再见，包括家人，小球，鸭子，小狗，房子，月亮，卖面的阿嫂，油站的外劳。嫣然的眼中，万物皆平等，都必须礼遇。

以往嫣然一旦吃进了她不想吃的东西，她总会马上吐出来。最近她学会了表达对食物不满意的情绪，示意我向前，要我把手伸到她的口边，她才把食物吐到我的掌心。

嫣然有洁癖，身体只要稍微肮脏了，她会不断地指着肮脏的部分，嚷着要我关注。地上有任何的东西，不管体积多小，她都会作出回应。能吃的，她会吃。不能吃的，她会把垃圾交到我手里。

嫣然喜欢听歌。谁要是唱歌，嫣然就会检查看看是不是所有的人都在一起唱。哪个人没唱的，她会要求他参与。歌唱完后，每个人都必须拍掌。谁不拍掌，她会指着他要他拍掌。公主有命，不能不从。

偶尔我拿出十多年前的旧照片，要嫣然认出我，她都可以胜任。有一次，我让她看一张大概有二十多个人的全体合照。她认真检查一番后，终于还是发现了我。那个时候的我，发型，体型，跟现在有着天渊之别，嫣然的facial recognition的能力，不可小看。

嫣然好像永远都在晃来晃去，很少有安静的时候。只有这么一天晚上，接近午夜的时候，我抱着她到楼上去睡觉。当我缓缓上楼的时候，她一直安静地在靠在我怀里，并抬头望着我，深情款款地的，好像要跟我说些什么。我紧紧地将她搂住。前世今生，我们可曾相遇?

古语说，幼吾幼以及人之幼，以前不能体会。现在的心境不一样了。听到中国地震的新闻，听到四川许多孩子们活埋在学校的废墟下的消息，是很让人震动的。我马上联想的，是许多像嫣然般淘气的小精灵不再笑了，不再玩小拳头了，不再嚷着要去乐园了，不再跟人拜拜了，不再要人唱歌了，不再要人拍掌了，这要让多少的爸爸妈妈心碎。

谨以此文纪念嫣然的第二个年头的的生命旅程，以及所有受苦难的孩子们。

“My dear children, It is now better than several years since I moved to New York and I haven't seen you as much as I would like to. I hope you will come to this ceremony of Papal honors, given for my charitable work. The only wealth in this world is children. More than all the money and power on Earth. You are my treasure. ”

Michael Corleon, Godfather.

Reporting Live From China

Steve Tan says:
Are you surving ?
Steve Tan says:
Am I talking to a laptop that has no owner ?
Steve Tan says:
Pls tell me u are safe
Deisy says:
safe lah
Deisy says:
we were evacuated
Steve Tan says:
hahahaha
Deisy says:
so at home now
Steve Tan says:
so good
Deisy says:
still dizzy
Steve Tan says:
half day holiday
Steve Tan says:
how bad is it
Deisy says:
7.8 及
Deisy says:
级
Deisy says:
very cialat.
Deisy says:
we so far also can feel
Deisy says:
so dizzy, whole building was swaying
Steve Tan says:
Did your cup topple
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Did your desk fall
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Did you fall down
Steve Tan says:
Anyone trapped in the lift
Deisy says:
no lah
Deisy says:
we very mild
Steve Tan says:
do you have another holiday tommorrow?
Deisy says:
so far from sichuan
Deisy says:
but can feel
Deisy says:
no lah
Deisy says:
everyday holiday, economy is going down liao
Steve Tan says:
what if olympic stadium is destroyed
Steve Tan says:
they don't have time to repair
Deisy says:
dunno lah
Steve Tan says:
do people still go shopping ?
Deisy says:
just now we saw the car parked at road side, is moving foreward and backward in slight motion, scary
Steve Tan says:
or everyone just go home
Deisy says:
my fren did some shopping before go home
Deisy says:
i only bought bread and watermelon
Deisy says:
hahahaa
Steve Tan says:
haha
Steve Tan says:
you went shopping
Deisy says:
bread!
Deisy says:
in case mah
Deisy says:
what if tomorrow also like that, then eat what ah
Steve Tan says:
why not buy more stuff, because the city might be going down without power for a few days
Deisy says:
watermelon is for tonight
Steve Tan says:
watermelon for dinner
Deisy says:
we have lots of maggie mee